Upset. Very.

I'm still alive. But perhaps not for long. For I'm drowning in the neverending pile of work. Often, I can't help but feel demoralized. It's not that I don't even try. It's just that I keep trying but I am constantly failing.

And home is just not a conducive place to study...

My sister is back from her working trip. That's the only happy thing which happened these few days. But I'm grateful for that. Thankfully, her flight is not delayed by the Icelandic volcanic eruption. My sister has been spoiling me rotten by buying presents for me every week =x I feel really bad to have her splurge on me. But I think it's her way of rooting for me and cheer me up during this tough period, and I really appreciate her thoughts.

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I guess it's the time of the month again. It's when you get very upset over the slightest things, when you get emotional over almost nothing and when you can't help being unreasonable. But it is also the time when you wish to have a little more attention and understanding from the people around you. That, I don't think I'm getting any.

Maybe if I die suddenly today, no one will find out until weeks later.

I thought I matter to you but it's just my wishful thinking. Sometimes I think too highly of myself.

I have so much more to say but I don't think I should go on. How I wish I can hide somewhere where no one can find me.

I wish for a rainbow

Pardon the emo-nemo entries nowadays. School is killing me slowly but surely and it doesn't help that I'm PMSing.

I'm in dire need of some cheering up =(

Would you believe me?

不管我说什么，你都不会相信我的。

早知道会受伤，为什么还要回头？

冷漠的夜里，只有眼泪是热的。
在这混乱虚假中，只有痛是真实的。

我真的好累。。。

I thought that you will be the one standing there when the whole world turns its back on me.
I thought that you will be the one who would believe me when no one else does.
Seems like I'm wrong. So wrong.

No more tears after tonight. I promise.