The First Noel

Grand reunion on Christmas Day 2005 at Raffles Hotel. I'm already looking forward to reunion 2009 =)

Have been caroling for the past 2 days. Finally, I have done something productive for my holidays. It was a small group thingy inside a shop. My singing techniques are getting rusty. Well, not that I'm even good to start with =x And singing with blocked ears + bad cramps + fatigue = horrible x 100000. I sounded more like I was croaking than singing. I definitely wasn't expecting it to be so tiring. It was pretty fun though. Hehe.



I have always wanted to have a Christmas tree in my home. It's one of the things on my Things-I-wish-to-do(own)-before-I-die List (i.e. The Bucket List) after a grand piano. I'm 20 now and my Christmas tree is still nowhere in sight. I have a sad life.

If I have a Christmas tree, I'll make sure it does not see the light only during the Christmas season. It shall be a permanent accessory in my house, maybe my room, so that I can stare at it every night. It's such a pretty thing which so does not deserve to be chucked away in the storeroom.

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We had a 'picnic' at Simsim's house on Friday! It was a happy day spent with the dearest friends in my life. I'm glad to see the girls after so long. The weather was fine, the food was awesome and the company was the best. We spent the rest of the afternoon slacking around and playing Taboo. Ziyan baked a cheesecake to celebrate Marisa and my birthdays. I was so touched =) I love surprises. Needless to say, the cake was yummy. Bestest cheesecake I have ever had. And I mean it. The texture and taste were perfect. And of course, it's filled with love, warmth and sincerity. Hehe. Ziyan should really set up a bakery next time. I can be your helper!

These people are one of the main reasons why I didn't regret going to VJC. They have watched me cry so hard over the disappointments in my life. They are the ones who gave me the encouragement when I felt like the most useless thing on Earth. They tolerated my shortcomings without the slightest complaints. They are the ones who make me feel blessed. I should be thankful for that.

I really miss the JC days. I miss my class. The girls are kind and we helped each other. The guys may be playful at times but most of them are real gentlemen, which is something I hardly see nowadays. Sure, we had our fair share of disagreements but they were all resolved eventually. There were no hidden daggers or anything of that sort. We may not be the most bonded class but the people are all nice and fun and I really feel comfortable with them. I'm so glad to have known them.

I miss choir. Yes, the practices were hectic and it was too cliquish, but when our voices came together, I could feel an undeniable sense of belonging and pride to be there. I'm sure the others felt this way too. I'm glad I didn't give up. If not, it'd be the greatest regret in my life. And I secretly miss Mr Kwei as well although I get frightened by him sometimes.

The last reason why I miss JC, probably only my closer friends will know. No matter how stupid people think I was, I just want to say that I have no regrets at all.

How I wish I can turn back time. I want to be forever 16. Life was easier back then. It was much less complicated. People were genuine.

My current life is in shambles. In school, it's so competitive that I can hardly breath. I think I don't belong in this system. The system whereby people believe only A is good enough and anything else is poor. Studying didn't use to be so torturous. Really. And there are the little disappointments here and there which I don't wish to elaborate on.

Right now, I just want to concentrate on graduating so that I can give my parents a better life.