Tuesday, March 9, 2010

It's okay

You know, lately, I've been thinking quite a bit.

A year ago, if you hadn't hesitated, perhaps it would have happened.

You gave me time to change my mind. The time to let the past get to me again. By then, it was too late. It would be unfair to you, I thought.

For a few months, the words in the card ran through my mind countless times. I tried so hard to convince myself. I almost wanted to believe them. I almost wanted to believe you. Trust me. I'm not as heartless as you thought I am. New year week, I was almost certain. I made a little something for you. To let you know that you actually matter.

But the gift will never reach its rightful owner. Because today, things have changed. You have changed. You hurt me, the way I had hurt you. It was then when I realise, those words no longer hold the same meaning. It's just another empty promise.

But it's okay. I'm used to all these. It has happened countless times anyway.

I'll be okay. Really.

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