Happy Birthday

First scrapbook I've ever made for anyone. And that's because you're special. Very special =)

If you ever receive anything handmade from me, that means you matter a lot to me. So please treasure it, and please treasure me. Just because I want to have a special place in your heart too.

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Our dear girl turned 21 years old today.

When she was giving her birthday speech, she started crying. It wasn't long before I realised my vision was blurry. Unknowingly, tears had found their way to my eyes. I know this is very, very silly. But it felt as though I've watched my daughter grow up to become who she is today. I don't even know her for that long. But it actually feels that we've known each other for a long, long time.



Last night, I had this mad craving for Island Creamery Apple Pie flavoured ice-cream. I told no one else except my mum (I was acting like a childish and demanding kid, bugging her to bring me there).

Tonight, this birthday girl decided that her birthday cake is to be from Island Creamery.


Apple Pie flavoured ice-cream with gummy toppings

Now, do you believe in telepathy?

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Took so many pictures today. It's going to take 10 years for me to resize all of them so that will have to wait. 99% of the pictures are of food and more food anyway, so I don't think anyone will be interested.

Anyway, Happy Birthday to my Ah Doo (it's officially 4th Jan now)! Hope that you will study hard and make our parents proud!

If only I was half as fortunate as this girl. She has a loving family and wonderful friends.

What do I have?

Will my family ever surprise me with a scrapbook filled with millions of little fond memories? Do they love me half as much? I don't think so.
My friends. Do they love me for who I am? Will they see my flaws as perfections instead of picking on them? Will they be there with me on a special day like this and be happy and excited with me? Unlikely.

Why do I feel alone even at the most crowded and noisiest places? I feel so tired. Because I'm trying so hard to find somewhere where I can finally feel safe. Somewhere where I will never have to worry about being lost again.

I guess I'm still searching. Searching for that someone who will treasure me more than I treasure him. Does such a person even exist?